| Thursday, October 28th, 2004 |
| 10:52 pm |
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| Tuesday, October 19th, 2004 |
| 11:47 pm |
I Miss NC!!!
I guess sorrow of life in the recent has made me dwell upon my roots more. The more time goes on, the more I miss North Carolina, including my friends there. When all seems blissful, nostalgia is not as prominent as when the desire for happiness overwhelms the depths of the mind. The most haunting fact is that the more I miss my friends and my former home, the more I lament my mistakes. Never so strong has remorse for the crude comment, the harsh parting, or the missed romance burned upon my conscious and unconscious mind. I greatly long to go back, if for no other reason than to make right the wrong I unleashed at the time of my parting. All is not lost though. The joy that abounds in my heart from the knowledge of God's love for me keeps the fire going in my heart and soul. God has also given me hope in that I may yet be able to go to NC at the December. Even if I can't go home, surely God shall supply me with what I need to in the long run serve him better. Current Mood:  discontent |
| Sunday, September 5th, 2004 |
| 11:52 pm |
Victory is mine
I just spent 20 minutes trying to get a big ol' spider off of my comforter so that I could kill it and go to sleep. The spider was quick, and his evasions tactful, but in the end victory is mine. Woot!!! Current Mood: sleep deprived |
| Friday, August 20th, 2004 |
| 4:18 pm |
I got the physics lab blues!
Well today was my first physics lab day. It was alright. The problem is I have to have a rough draft of a lab analysis paper by Monday. Usually it is not a problem, but my lab is on significant figures. How am I sposda write a report on sig figs??? This is gonna be a huge load of B.S. I also have some homework problems, but they should be easy. Current Mood:  shocked |
| Tuesday, August 17th, 2004 |
| 11:31 am |
I got my license!!!!!
Well I finally got that little item which certifies that I can legally drive. Woot! The test was easy. Other than attaining my license, nothing exciting has happened. Of course now reality sets in. I must now get a job. Oh well,...at least I'll be making some desperately needed cash. Now to play my guitar. Current Mood: chipper |
| Wednesday, August 11th, 2004 |
| 11:33 pm |
I need motivation
I find myself not caring about jack crap. I know I should start certain projects, but I have no desire to do them. I can't con myself to do anything. I have no clue what to do to snap out of it, but I don't have any motivation to snap out of it. I find myself not even being motivated to play my guitar. Oh well. What's the motivation of typing? Current Mood: chronic apathy |
| Tuesday, August 10th, 2004 |
| 9:36 pm |
Hot Color Melting My Anger To Stone
Well today I registered for classes for high school. I can't believe I have one more year till I am off to college. I feel old. Learning the banjo is fun. I have other things I should start doing, but I feel no motivation for it. I am at the point where I pretty well don't care about anything. Oh well, I better enjoy my last 8 days of freedom from knowledge. Btw my title comes from the Yes Song Long Distance Runaround. Current Mood:  apathetic |
| Monday, August 2nd, 2004 |
| 11:53 pm |
Unfortunately I'm back
Well Chicago was awesome. Between the people, the experiences, and the food (yummm...) it was one of the best times I can remember. The problem is that I wish I was still there. I am sick and tired of the small town setting. I don't like being involved in a million and one things I never even thought of wanting. I hate how my actions can and likely are critiqued constantly in this lil' town. The worse thing is that the food here sucks...Oh the humanity!!!! I have a new passion for the big city, which could make leaving Robinson and my friends a bit easier. However Chicago was not the cure all in my life. I still find myself in the middle of something I REALLY don't wanna be in, and now I'm struggling with something that is a royal pain. AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! Current Mood:  frustrated |
| Saturday, July 24th, 2004 |
| 11:27 pm |
10 more hours till I hit the road for Chicago
Well it's finally hittin' crunchtime. I've started getting packed. I'm so excited (and I just can't hide it). Before I get back to packing, I want to say good luck to Will and Ashley. I wish you the best in Germany and wherever else the Lod sees fit to place ya'll. (I say this since I likely won't see ya'll before ya'll go to Germany and even if you come back to visit this area I likely won't ever see ya'll again since my folks wanna move way out of this area once I'm in college). Goodbye Ashley and Will! For the rest of ya'll, I'll cya in a week! Current Mood: ecstatic |
| 12:41 am |
thoughts
Before I start ranting in my usual late night delirium I would like to say Congratulations to Will and Ashley for gettin' hitched. May the days of joy for you two in your life be far greater than the quantity of leptons, gluons, and mesons in the universe (for those who don't know, those are subatomic particles). Well sitting through a wedding and then to hang out with Kyle made me realize that chaos is just mankind's giving up in seeing the grandeur of this insurmountable creation by the Almighty. I'm sure that part of everyone's life is a time where we scratch our head wondering how did it come to this? I never would have thought I would ever have winded up in Robinson, much less actually form the friendships I have. I definately wasn't expecting me to draw close to the Lord, but the most peculiar detail is that I have become more human. I had interaction with people in NC, but I never had much closeness with or concern for others. Now I have close friendships and want to see others happy (even at my own expense). Somehow through Providence I have been transplanted and molded into a new creature. It makes me realize that when you trust God, change will inevidably work out in the end. Well I'll get off of here. Congratulations again to the newlyweds. Current Mood:  contemplative |
| Wednesday, July 21st, 2004 |
| 1:12 pm |
I'm not playing football
I told my pa today that I'm not playing football. That compelled him to say that I'm not being lead by God to do this, but by my over-possesive church. This is of course not true, since I was never influenced by Highland in my actions. I was compelled through prayer, and prayer alone. God wants me to pursue him more, and I find that I do not fervently seek God while in football. I just caused the crap to hit the fan, but it had to happen sooner or later. Current Mood: no words can truly describe |
| 12:21 am |
aargh...
well I have confirmed my theory that hypocrasy is not a constant in the universe, but increases exponentially for each added person. The rank of the hypocrasy I've been exposed to is about to make me blow my top. AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!On the positive side of things, I have very lil' time 'till I head to Chicago. I can't wait to get out of this stupid area for a while. Woot! Now I'm gonna do my late night usual, and play the blues. Current Mood: pissed off |
| Sunday, July 18th, 2004 |
| 2:04 am |
frustrations of insomnia
well I can't fall asleep again. It ususally wouldn't be a problem, but I gotta be up at the church at 7:15 am. Basically I will be running all day on zero sleep,...oh goody. Other than that life's in it's fun ol' slump. I am finding I'm grouchy, frustrated, and musically inept. On the plus side I've had some good meals. Current Mood:  crazy |
| Thursday, July 15th, 2004 |
| 12:54 pm |
the painful sting of boredom
again I find myself with nothing better to do than sit and type. I put a wierd little bass line to the hymn revive us again. (unfortunately ,strole, the funk hasn't been with me much recently; hence your pool song is taking forever and is reeking like a ditch full of rotting squirrel meat in the heat of summer. Oh well, I guess I'm a crappy bassplayer afterall....) Current Mood: crushed |
| 3:20 am |
For once I'm not tired
Well it's 3:20 and I ain't tired. Who would of thought it. I am working on adding some fun little fills for misc. songs. well off to my lack of sleepiness Current Mood:  bouncy |
| Wednesday, July 14th, 2004 |
| 12:06 am |
I love Carolina Crabcakes
Well my day had been pretty lackluster since I've been trying to clean my room. However about 20 minutes ago my dad fixed some good ol' Carolina Crab Cakes. For all of ya'll who have never eaten Carolina Crabcakes, imagine being caught up in a euphoric trance. It is one of my favorite seafood dishes. It makes me miss living back in NC. Oh well, at least I have eaten some killer crabcakes again. Current Mood: grateful |
| Tuesday, July 13th, 2004 |
| 11:19 am |
The pain of thought
Well I find myself overthinking everything again. I came to this realization when I woke up thinking of the philisophical (metaphysical to be exact) ramifications of my dreams. I am gettin' a bit fed up with everything I observe being cross examined for meaning and logic. I think Socrates was wrong when he said the unexamined life is not worth living. Oh Well,...it gives me an excuse to listen to some Muddy Waters. Current Mood: aggravated |
| Saturday, July 10th, 2004 |
| 12:08 pm |
sight transposing is not fun
well today at the baptist campgrounds I had to transpose a song I had never heard or played before. This is normally not a problem, but I had to transpose it once the song started. I've heard of having to think fast on your feet, but I'm prettty sure the guy who coined the phrase never thought of sight transposing when performing a song unbeknownst to you. At least it wasn't transposed from a major key to a minor key (that would be pure evil). Current Mood: frustrated |
| Thursday, July 8th, 2004 |
| 11:42 pm |
Delirium
Well I find myself pondering to no avail again. I wonder at why all has unfolded, yet I know that my thoughts solve nothing. Hence I am confused by my own thinking nature. I am trying to logically deduce a comforting reason, but it is backfiring. I guess this is just another time that being an overthinker is destructive towards the goal of bliss, which as we all know is best attained by ignorance. On the plus side, my headache has lessened. Pax est in animus, non in mundus. Current Mood:  confused |
| Wednesday, July 7th, 2004 |
| 1:05 pm |
Looks like I'm going to Chicago
Well today I got an acceptance letter from Rich Knopp, Ph.D, into the worldvieweyes seminar in Chicago. It'll be awesome. I'm looking forward to a chance to learn about urban worldviews and ministry. If I'm lucky, I get to eat in china town (I am really, really hoping so). Of course a really cool bit about it is that I'll most likely see my good ol' friend Kyle Adkins there. I also found out that the $100 fee is waived for me. I am in a very good mood right now. Woot! I head for Chicago on the 25th, and get back the 31st. Woot! Glory to God in the highest! Current Mood: cheerful |
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